If I die young....

I just listen to a song cover by Sam Tsui and Kurt Schneider... If I Die Young.....

Well.. I'm not planning to end my life young, no I don't... but who could know what will happen? I hope I could live forever young.. but again, it's impossible unless vampires are real and I could become one. :D

But well no one could tell when someone would die, it's all in the God's hands. So... just in case if something happens to me and I die young... I would like to tell this to everyone...

Believe me.. I have enjoyed my life the fullest.

I have fell in love and experienced it.
I have lots of my friends that I could trust and share my life with.
I have seen half of the world with my own eyes.
I have played music, sung and danced to my heart content with all the melodies of the world.
I have met lots of people from all over the world that left tiny little foot steps in my life.
I have experienced flying.
I have swam in the ocean, lake and river.
I have went to the jungle, climbed the trees and experience the nature.
I have read hundreds of stories and create some.
I have taste lots of wonderful and amazing foods from all over the world.
I have seen the world from my point of view, learned the magic and fell in love with it.

I could say that I have no regret in my life, perhaps my biggest regret and despair is to die before my mother and father.

But believe me, if I die... I would be flying with the stars and explore the galaxies like I used to dream when I was young, I would be happy and you should too.

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Send me away with the words of a love song
then you can go and celebrate
coz I'm going to a much better place
I would be singing and dancing all day
with no more worries and pain

Things to do before Graduation

Today I watched a short movie made by Kurt Schneider in YouTube.. It's basically a short movie made for the graduation.. It's sweet in a way and cute too.

One think that actually gave me inspiration is to make a to do list before graduation. This semester is also my last semester in university. I might not be taking any other education program which means it might be my last chance on experiencing university life.. It hits me like a big stone in the face... I never actually considered it that way, and now that I realized it.... I need to make my own list..

I don't want to graduate with any regrets about things that I've never done in university life. :D

I've started to make my list, and it also surprised me... I haven't done any crazy things during my university life.. I guess it's a good sign.. but also.. I think I need to experience the crazy things too.. coz it's my last chance anyway.

I have never been drunk before in my whole life.. but yea.. I guess I need to try it once.

I have never celebrate Halloween with really dressed up, so... this is also my last chance.

You could also say that I never make a move to the person that I fell in love with, and I think I need to do it too... well... if I fell in love in this last semester though.. if it's not.. then... it's fine :D

Ok.. this one is from my room mate, when I asked her for her suggestions and opinion... she told me that I need to just kiss a random cute guy. Because she said.. c'mon it's university life, you need to do that at least once!! Well... I guess that's true too.. I never kissed any guy which is not my boyfriend before... and yea... it's crazy university life anyway :D

I'll keep this list and up date it from time to time... I don't want to have any regrets when I'm graduating because of the things that I didn't do before... ^^

BA update

Well, well......

I haven't updated anything for sometimes now.... well... truthfully I'm busy, but also.. occupied and of course... forgot hahaha..

The first snow has fell down here a couple of days ago, but ti's still a wet snow and it doesn't stay at all on the ground... so you can say it's like rain still, but it will be white and pretty soon :)
I also heard rumors from Asia that this year's winter is the coldest winter in 100 years....... Well.. it's not a good news at all for me. I'm living 15 minutes from school now and if it's going to be very cold... then it won't be good for me!! and I really hope that it's only a rumor, I mean... there's no such news about it here... so... it's only a rumor right?? :D

I have submitted the proposal of my dissertation, it's not as easy as I thought it would be honestly, but I think it should be okay. There are some things that I'm worrying about, like the way I'm going to do my primary research, seriously it's not really reliable way... but... I can't do it reliably. I don't have the time, connection or funds to do the proper research. So.. we'll see about the comments about it soon.

After the proposal... basically I'm in such a relax mood.. so I started watching some cartoons.. the "Nurarihyon no Mago" and "Avatar, the Last Airbender" :D
I love both of the cartoons a lot. Especially I also enjoy the opening song in Nurarihyon no Mago.. and it turns out that the band is Canadian-Japanese with this weird name "Monkey Majik", but they're amazing and I love all of their songs so far and so in love with the melody. Their songs already keep playing in my mind for a few days now but still persistent there :). If there's a guy that I quite like and sing "With You" by the band... I would be in love hahahahahaha.

Talking about love... my other best friend also just got a boyfriend recently. It's a nice event, since I could see that she's much happier now and the guy is also a good guy :D. And myself?? Still the same as always hahaha. Maybe I'm too picky, but lots of other girls also agree that in our environment right now there's not much decent choice.. so it's not only me! hahaha

So... also... why do I suddenly remember the blog?? Well.. got to write some reflective log for one of my assignments... yup.. it's just reminded me of this blog hahahahaha

well... back to the original plan.... assignments!!!! :D

Sadest Video Clip

Ok, I know it's a very very old video clip.. I think I watched this video the first time when I was in high school and that means around 6 years ago?? But still... this video was imprinted in my mind as the most sad video that I have ever seen. Then I saw the videos again, and then I found this one with the english subtitles of what the actual lyric means... this music video became even sweeter and sad...

Here is the lyric with the translation that I found in a blog :)

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso

I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy


marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything



modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again



marur haji guresso nega shirhojyodago
nunchiga obnun nan nur boche giman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything


[narration] Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde

[narration]
Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you



sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything


Narration (Guy, only in the music video)
There's someone I'm in love with...
Although I can't be with her now...
I'm still in love with her...

BA life is Starting...

My first week of BA has past now.

So.. how's my impression? It would be a very exciting semester I guess. Lots of my friends had gone because they have finished their BA while I'm doing the optional internship. I was afraid that I won't have much friends this semester but I was wrong. I made a lot of new friends :)

Though it's very different with the past few years of education, but I feel very excited and challenged now. Yes, it is harder. Yes I would need to put lots of efforts for this semester. But yes, I am excited as well. We need to read so many things just by the first week!! Well, the motto of the year is read, read, read and more reading. No joking, that's all the teacher was saying in the class. It seems that by the end of the term I would be falling in love deeply with those books.

But why am I so excited?
At last I felt that I'm really in a university and no longer in high school. I decided to live outside the school with one of my best friends, so we actually had to walk up and down every single day, which most of the normal university people need to do. We had a lot of independent studies now. More individual reports too. So... I think I'm going to enjoy this last semester :D

Things to do:
- buy the Lebara mobile number
- upload holiday pictures in Facebook
- read the article and book for MCD
- read the article for ACB
- make the power point for ACB
- read and do the test for CI
- sign up for IRF & the workshop
- update CV
- make the dissertation topic
- contact Royal Caribbean for primary research permission