Stupid....

Yesterday morning, on the way to my work.. I listened in the radio about the new law that’s on progress to be validated in the country. And the law is about giving maximum 5 years jail punishment for people using supernatural power to harm/kill other people (if it’s validated, this country I’m in would be the only country in the world that have a legal indications about supernatural powers), and they asked the listeners’ opinion about it.

I was shocked just to listen about it.. I mean… yes the people here are quite superstitious, but to put it in law.. seriously? On what base could you prove it? People testimonials? Their believes?
I’m afraid it would be just like the burning of the witches on the 15th century in Europe before. Where hundreds if not thousands of people convicted without much evidences. Framing innocent people would be so much easier this way, just point them as a voodoo user or something, and they would go to jail.

And then the first ringer is on the line. His comment made my jaw dropped… He said maximum 5 years punishment is too light, it should be life or even death punishment. If not, people would just resort to using black magic medium to kill people, as the punishment is way lighter than killing people in the ‘normal’ way. We should not ‘encourage’ people by making the punishment light. 0.o wow… I’m speechless.. Do people really believe it so much?

Then the second ringer is on the line.. and thanks God.. he’s sensible.. He said that it’s ridiculous and we would be the laughing stock of other countries.

Then the third ringer is online.. and again.. I really can’t believe it.. She basically agrees that it’s shameful, but we needed such law, so people will stop using it, as it is now against the law.

0.0….. I know some people do resort to black magic in this country for some things, but I myself think that it’s bulls***. I mean c’mon this is the 21^st century, how could you explain how your hair/picture can be used to make you fall ill or even kill you from a sudden unknown disease -.-

If you really want to stop people to stop thinking about such supernatural foolishness, putting the people  behind bars are not enough. It would only make the people to believe it more, why else do you even put it in law if it’s not real? More people would seek help from the voodoo priests. Unless they charged the voodoo priests as frauds, then it’s okay to have such law.

Really….. sometimes people are just so stupid -.-

Panicked

That one holiday that I got my heart raced..
The day that I was so afraid..

There's this little dog that live with me now. He is a very cute dog, and I have grew fond of him. He's quite lively and loves to play and run, and he loves to play and run outside the house everytime the front door is open.

And in that day, the door was open, he ran out, he was running fast as if he was flying.. and I watched him ran. He was running out of my side, behind the truck that's parked in front of the house. Then I saw this car coming.. I already got a very bad feeling.. I just wished that the car won't run over him.. please it won't happen.

I saw the car gaining speed, as I just thought it would be okay. The dog would be smart enough not to cross the road at this point, I heard a bump and I heard the dog whined...

My heart sank....
I knew what happened, I ran to the street, and I saw him laying there, struggling to get up but can't.. I panicked, I though I could even hear the sound its bones rubbing as it tried to stand up. I can't stand the view and I ran back, calling for help.

By the time the driver was in the front porch, apologizing, I realized that I was a little bit shaking.  The dog seems to survive, the maid was carrying him, holding him.

We called the vet, but he would only be able to come after 3 hours and there was no hospital open that day. I was so scared..
Scared that the dog would have internal injuries
Scared that it won't be able to survive.

The dog can barely can stand up.. he was shaking
I could hear his damp breath, troubled and short

At one point, he was trying to poo, he got into position and fell down.
My heart is crying, I don't even know if I was crying literally or not.

He can't stop shaking, and I was trying to put him to sleep, to ease his pain and trauma, but all he did was whining in each of his breath..
I was preparing myself.. that I might not see him survive the night.
I was so sad.

The doctor came when he said he would, we showed him the dog, and he examined it. He said he was lucky, and he said he would survive.
I was so glad, there's no apparent broken bones.

It take some time before he would start touching his food, and start wiggling his tail again.
But every progress that he made to recovery.. it made me happy.
Today, he seems quite normal, almost like when the accident haven't happen.
I'm happy.

It's never easy to say goodbye

Yesterday... I received news.. that my uncle had just died. 

I'm speechless... I don't know what to say... 

I am sad

But it's not something that's shocking.. we (the family) had been warn..  by the words of brain tumor.... by the words of the doctors that said "sorry, but I do not dare".

In some corner of my heart... I think somehow.. it might have been better for him. He's no longer haunted by 'when would it be' or that he won't be in pain any longer. He is free from any worries and troubles.

Yes.. this must has been something good for him.

Now that has left...

How I longed to go to my family.. to my mother that's grieving her younger brother... 

to my younger cousins that just lost their father.

But then again... I don't know how to console them...

Perhaps.. I would just sit in silence with them.

I feel remorse too that I had never visited him when he was sick. But living outside of the country.. it's not that easy to return either. 

But then again.. I think I do have the benefit.. the uncle that engraved in my mind is a healthy laughing uncle. The last time I was in the country, he didn't have the tumor yet... and I am late by a few months as I am suppose to go back home at last in the next few months.

But in my memory when I think of him... he's still the healthy, smiling uncle :)

Rest in peace my dearest uncle...

We are missing you and we will be always miss you.

Unsure

Today... the place that's famous for it's sunshine is grey. The cloud that brings rain has been staying over and doesn't any signs of moving out.

Sitting inside my room and looking out to the window... I only see wet roads with wet cars passing by. The sun is still too shy to show his face.

I'm stuck in this room, having a full list of what to do, but don't know how to start doing them. My future is just like the sky... cloudy and unclear.

"What should I do next?"
"How do I want to do it?"
"Do I really want it?"

Growing up is something that I embrace happily and sadly... Happy that at last a life that my decisions really make a point in my life, instead of someone else that make that decision for me has come. Sad and cautious that I'm not sure what to do with it... I'm not sure what I want. What that I'm thinking would be the best idea now, I might regret it one day in the future.

Should I do this... Should I do that.... hm.....

2012 Resolution

Well... now that 2011 has ended.... way faster and sooner that I thought it would... with so many things happen and me that keep rushing from one point to another (you can see that I moved from Leysin to Zurich and then now in the United States...) (or from finishing dissertation to the last internship and to a training program..) - I still can't understand how time flew sometimes...

And just now, I review back my 2011 resolution, something that I haven't done since I actually wrote it... and I'm quite surprised actually that I've done it. I did my 2011 resolution. Well... apart from having my weight down to 58 kg, just because I don't have a scale and I don't really intend to know how much I weight at the moment lol. Not that I'm gaining so much that I'm afraid to look at it, but it's just that... well... as long as I'm still comfortable with myself, I don't think that the number on the scale really matters. I might even reach 58 kg at some point last year.

Oh well, I'm happy with my last year result... and now starts the new one :)



My 2012 Resolutions:

• Keep reading books
• Write every now and then
• Learn to know my own needs and wants
• Success my training
• Find out the next plan (continue, or keep studying, or find a new job, or make my own living)
• Have fun with friends while in the United States
• Visit New York, Key West and San Fransisco
• Learn to speak more German and or Spanish
• Keep in Love :)