New Chapter in Life

The time has been running up too fast for me for the past year. My last semester in university gone like in a blink of an eye. Suddenly I had been parted with my friends.. suddenly and miraculously, I have finished my dissertation and now I am officially graduated with Second Class degree First Division... Something that I thought not gonna be that easy for me to get....

I have tried though, to make the fullest of my last semester in university. I wrote down a list of what I want to do, unfortunately I wasn't able to cross all of them. But I had fun creating it, as well as trying to cross the list one by one. Of course, there is a little regret that there are things that I still want to do before I'm graduated... but I guess it is okay and I had the most fun that I could get already. :)

At the beginning of the year... my future seems so much clouded, I don't know where I would be in the coming few months. There was so much worries, so many uncertainties...

Thankfully though, I got a job offer in Zurich just in the time that I need it. Just when I finished my dissertation then I boarded the train off to the biggest city in the country, leaving my little hometown in Switzerland, hoping for a new experience and I welcomed the stability and the little sight of my future, at least for the coming six months.

The job turns out to be great, I love the people, I love the restaurant, I love the new friendships that came along, and I even fell in love... and the least expected moments in my life, this person came and took my world to him. With him, everything just seems to be right, even though it feels like a roller coaster ride in the same time. The speed is a little bit scarifying but exciting in the same time. In just a little time, it feels that I knew him for a life time. Everyday is nice and precious to just let go.. especially knowing that we don't have much time to be together.

My next job had came to light, and everything is settled. I got my visa and I was going to the United States. This.. is going to be my home for the next one year.

I never like saying good byes... I hate it when I have to go and things could never come back to the way they used to be. The people.. the places.. even if I returned.. I know somehow it's not gonna be the same. I can only remember them as memories. I wasn't happy to leave the country that I called home for four years even though this is not my home country.
I wasn't happy to leave the friendships that had developed with the people here.
Especially, I wasn't happy to leave my schatzly.

But things in life... sometimes you have to let them go and embrace the new chapter of your life.

So... here I am, in United States, going to start my new job on Monday, still adapting to the new environments... and of course, missing this one person in another continent and hoping that the new job will allow me to still keep in contact with him everyday.

Last Days in University

Yup... something that I honestly didn't want to come to an end yet... my school life with my friends. Now I'm officially don't have any more classes to attend. Most of my friends already gone either back to their home to other places that they should be now. I doubt that I would ever be able to see half of them in the future. It would be very difficult for me to see some of them again, since I don't know when or where that I would be able to see them again. Only some of my friends that are still left here, the ones that I could still meet and talk to in person.

Our last day past hardly with any real goodbyes thanks to the reports that confined us to our own space and as long as they're not finished, no one is happy to be disturbed. I only able to say my farewell to some of them in person, the rest are through online medias and some were very late that the next news I knew that they're at their home country already.

It is sad of course... how I wished that I could keep them next to me so we could still have fun together. Well, it didn't happen of course, I don't have any power on earth to make other people follow my wishes on a whim.

But in the same time, I'm happy that the graduation ceremony that was held a week ago enabled me to meet with my old friends, the graduating ones. It was such a nice couple of days that I could spent with them.. too bad that it's over too soon for me. Only for a few days and they're gone again, continue their own lives.

and here I am... still stuck on the place I am now, the place that I reluctant to let go, the place that I've called home for 4 years....

I know soon that I'll leave this place, very soon I'll find my other paths to other places. Even though I, myself don't know where I would be in a few months for now, it could be here in Switzerland, USA, Hong Kong, or even home... I don't know, I am just a windflower ready to be flown away by the wind, but doesn't know where it would be.

I could only wish all the best now for all of my friends, and hopefully fate is kind enough to let us meet again somehow somewhere in the future :)

The kind of conversation you have on your last weeks of university

Here's one piece of conversation that we had during lunch today.....

Oh, here's some piece of information you'll need to understand the conversation below:

• skip 3 times: verbal warning
• skip 5 times: kicked out of the subject (you DON'T want this to happen)
• next week is the last week of our university, and it means classes are over :D but.. also the deadline for all those monstrous reports..........
  

A: I don't want to come to class today..
B: No one wants to go to that class...
A: I think I'll skip.
C: Ugh.. I can't skip anymore, I already skip 2 times and I'm planning to skip next week. So...
B: Yea A, come for today and we'll skip all of the classes for next week.
A: But I don't think going to that class will give me anything useful..
B: No, we'll go to class today and we'll skip for the last week... c'mon A..
C: Yea, go to class today and we'll skip next week.
A: But I want to skip today AND next week as well
D: But then you'll miss too many classes
B: Yea, and xxx (censored for everyone's peacefulness) for sure will do the absences without fail.
A: I only skip xxx class once, so I can skip now, and the 2 classes next week as well. Coz that means I only skipped 4 times, and verbal warning at the end of semester is totally useless.
D: oh... wow... you only skipped once?
A: yup..
B: I already skipped twice... so.. c'mon A, go to class today and we'll skip all of next week classes together!!
A:..... I don't want to... it's useless......
C: oh there's xxx!! Now A.. you can't skip anymore
B: yup, xxx knows that you're here!!!
A: %^(*&%$#$%^&&*

In the class before it starts...

E: someone please tell me what are we doing here??
A: that's exactly what I'm thinking about!!!
E: yea.. what's this gathering about???
A: I just hope it's going to be something useful...... really.....
E: nah... we're going to waste our time.. again..

What I WILL have in the future

Today I just realized that there are so many things that I want to do and have, or rather that I'm sure I WILL have in the future but I don't have them now.

I just went back from horse riding after haven't ridden one for a long time, and then when I'm just resting a bit, I heard a classic music in piano and it really made me want to play my piano. I realized that there are so many things that I missed from home, and how different my life here, independently and at home when I am dependent to my big family.

Life here is harder, I really need to put on account on everything that I want to buy, because I earned the money myself and the money would not come by itself like magic. Not like when I was still with my parents when I can just ask them that I want that thing or I need that thing, and the next thing was me, obtaining the things that I want. Well, a little bit of persuading is needed of course, but I know I could get it easy.

Here I don't have the luxury of home, the super nice bed and room, nice food without me have to cook or cleaning before and after, when I can just relax, drive my own car, play piano whenever I want and have lavish parties every now and then with my family and friends. No.. not here, not now. Everything need to be budgeted if I don't want to go broke in the middle of the road and have no money to do anything at all.

Well, I'm used to it. To live economically and super saving.
But also, how I realized that I don't want to live like this forever. I'm going to earn lots of money. I'm going to be able to live like I used to be (I know this is very selfish). I don't know how but I know I would be able to live like that again someday :D

And so.. I'm making a list of the things that I WILL have in the future :D

• Grand piano
• Nice house
• A horse
• A yacht
• A couple of nice cars
• A Siberian Husky
• More lenses for my Nikon D90
• Telescope
  

2011 Resolution

Ok... here we go...

* Graduate!!!
* Get a job
* Scratch off the things to do before graduation list
* Get the weight down to at least 58 kg
* Improve photography skills
* Start to think about my own business
* Keep in touch with my university friends

Ok short one :D but at least it would be easier to keep!!!