Wednesday, May 27, 2009

secercah warna dalam bingkai hitam putih

kemarin...
hari pertama aku diperbolehkan bergabung dengan yang lain di tempet Aikido ^^.
Maklum, berhubung aku pemula dan baru mulai, selama ini aku belajar sendirian dengan personal mentor, dan baru kemarinlah aku mulai belajar dengan yang lain. Yang artinya juga aku telah lulus setidaknya pelajaran dasar. hehehe

Senang?
pastinya
Gugup?
sebelumnya iya juga, takut kalo ternyata aku gagal dan kembali diungsikan sendiri. hahaha

Kemarin, sparing partner-ku seorang cewek yang sudah belajar aikido 3 atau 4 tahun.. dia sudah pakai hakama, yang artinya sudah lumayan master, dan satu hal lagi... dia cantik banget.

Capek?
wah... sangat.. apalagi sekarang swiss sudah memasuki musim panas, gila, panasnya sudah tidak kalah dengan Indonesia, malah mataharinya lebih menyengat rasanya.

Setelah latihan yang melelahkan ditambah dengan suhu yang kian meninggi, apalah yang bisa mengalahkan kenikmatan 'shower'... Enak banget rasanya waktu mandi!!!! XD

Saat berjalan pulang, sekitar 500-600 meter yang harus ditempuh demi mencapai halte, ada seekor anjing besar yang tiba-tiba menggonggong dan lari dengan kencang ke arah kita. Aku terdiam, aku memang jatuh cinta dengan binatang spesies satu ini, tapi tetap saja, saat mereka menyalak dan berlari kearahku.............. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. Aku takut! Aku tak berani bergerak, takut bila aku salah bergerak, dan menyebabkan akibat yang buruk. Apalagi saat itu aku berjalan dibagian depan rombongan. Seakan anjing itu berlari dan siap menyerangku. Untung saja pemiliknya yang berada di belakang anjing itu berteriak, memanggil namanya, si anjing pun diam dan berhenti.
Barulah kusadari, ada seseorang yang telah maju dari belakang dan berdiri di depanku. Aku baru sadar, aku terlindungi.
Sebuah perasaan yang timbul dengan tiba-tiba, dan membuatku kaget. Ini pertama kalinya setelah sekian lama aku merasa terlindungi. Kapan ya terakhir kali aku merasa dilindungi???? 3 tahun atau 4 tahun yang lalu??

Selama ini rasanya aku memang ingin mandiri, tidak mau bertumpu pada orang lain, dan aku merasa mampu. Apakah aku mampu sekarang? Aku harap sih iya.
Mau mandiri atau mau dilindungi???
Mandiri dong, tapi kalau dilindungi juga.. sekali-sekali ga apa-apa kok, asal jangan terus-terusan atau jadi ketergantungan. hehehehehe

lucu juga ya.. dari digonggongin anjing jadi refleksi diri XD

ini lagi iseng, mencoba membuat sesuatu yang sesuai dengan KBBI
entah maksud hati ini tercapai atau tidak... (walau tampaknya saya telah menyalahi aturan berbahasa Indonesia yang baik dan benar dalam beberapa kalimat yang telah saya sadari, tapi untuk mengubah menjadi benar... terasa janggal dan tak nyaman... Akhirnya dibiarkan sajalah hehehehehe)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

just thoughts

Begitu lama saya berhenti meng-update, sampai bingung harus mulai dari mana.....

yang sebenarnya ingin saya teriakkan......

I'M GOING ON A HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!!!!!!
^^

well... er... it's still on July though...
but who cares? just for the thought of it, excites me!
I'm going to Barcelona, Rome, and.. maybe Florence!!!!!
3 cities that I want to visit since a long time ago, and here's my chance! ^^

Am I going alone this time?
... almost (sigh....) >.<
luckily my friend Nickie is coming from UK to join me!!! ^^
We haven't met more than a year now. and now we're going on a holiday together... is such an awesome thing ^^
can't wait to finalize everything and then just wait for the happy days to come...

After a week around Europe holiday with Nickie, I'm planning to go back to Zug for a day or 2, just to organize my things for the last time before my flight to Atlanta.
Yup, I'm going to visit my sister again, and this time to take her daughter that is going to be born this July into my caring. ^^

Can't wait for the holiday
Can't wait to see my new, soon to be born, niece
and of course, last... but the best of all, my last day of work!!!!!!!!!!
(not that I don't like my job, but... well.... it's just... a happy thought.. hehehehe)


But... I still need to buy a handbag (quite big to suit my all-purposes in travelling) and a jeans (since my current jeans have holes now, HOLES!!! how could it be? I have NO-IDEA seriously >.<)

and... er... I think I need a bit diet.... coz I'm going to see my mom soon.... Yeah... I do need to reduce 2 or 3... or.. maybe 5 kg... >.<
but I think 2 or 3 is enough lol
I can't refused my ultimate joy in eating ^^

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

ia sudah tiada

ia yang kau kenal
sudah tiada
ia yang kau cinta
tak lagi di sini
ia yang kau impikan
telah hilang

ia telah berubah
bukan seorang yang kau kenal
ia tak lagi seperti dulu

kau hanya mengejar bayangan
kau mengejar dia
yang telah tiada

ia tak lagi disini
ia telah pergi
bukan sembunyi

kau tunjukkan sayang
pada orang yang salah
orang yang berbeda
dia bukan ia

ia sudah tiada
ia tak lagi di sini
ia telah hilang

ia yang kau kenal
telah berubah
ia yang sekarang
tak lagi kau kenal

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

few words

well....
what can I say......
I want to write longer >.<
I really want to >.<
but now... I only have half an hour before I have to catch the bus and here I am, still haven't got out of my cozy bed yet.
hehehehe

even when I have spare time.....
I spent if for "Legend" the Korean drama series, hehehe
the story is good, the legend is... somehow... sad :(
and honestly, I hate sad ending stories, so I hope the drama will have a happy ending (I'm watching episode 8 out of 24).

and oh.....
I got my final 2nd ROA already!!!!
my average is 86 :(
T.T
I hate accounting report
and the group member of the other report is.. er... not so... fortunate >.<
(sigh.............)
what can I do..
it's life.. so.. ENJOY it!!!!!!!!!
^^

This year Valentine's day is quite ordinary for me.
I hope for nothing
since I'm going to work the whole day anyway
hahaha
strangely, I got a strange dream, that made me wrote this poet on the morn of the "V" day

I have no hope with you
I thought
I’ve given up on you
I thought
I’ve been over you
I thought

Saat kubuka mata
Di senja tadi
Aku terhenyak
Dalam mimpi
Engkau ada

There’s a breakfast in front of the door
With a little note,
Make sure that I have breakfast before I go to work
(something that I’ve really rarely done)
there’s a message on my cell
shy, awkward words

semua itu
ciptaan khayalan saat tidur
menyingkap keinginan hati
yang terkubur

something impossible
things that will not happen in reality

harapan kosong
belaka

Today
Just like yesterday
I’m not hoping for anyone


Well, the valentine's day is quite good actually.
I got the whole atmosphere since I'm working in a restaurant and you can guess our customers would be couples, and even we gave some special extra decoration and services. One of my college, he's a player I could tell, he gave every single working woman in the restaurant a rose, so I got a rose. Well, I dried it for sure, like I did with every rose that came to my possession lol, but the best part is....... I got a lot of tips!!!! lol
I love Valentine's day ^^

Saturday, March 7, 2009

so many things in my mind... so little time

after I've been isolated in the online world (my internet is not working at all!! well, except from my cell phone), so many things have run through my mind...
so many things that I want to write, but I couldn't
I don't have the media
I don't have the time (working 10-12 hours a day is exhausting)
sometimes I have them so solid in my mind but I'm too lazy to write them down
hehehe
my old disease..
yeah... I know

starting from the..
Valentine
human instinct
working
power of mind
and the last.... from today....
the truth or lies of history and governments (I've just finished reading an analysis of an NTU student that is rumored to try to kill his prof. and did suicide, well, it's just an analysis from 1 point of view, the truth is something that no one knows since the subject of the story is no longer live in this world)
well, the subject is not about this person, but I got an idea to write about another subject that is inspired by this, about the lies in the histories that we learned.
well, the history from every country is different, well, just take the easy one, the winner is always the the good side.
for example, if and only if, NAZI never lost, maybe the history that we learn today, that Hitler is a good man, well, of course all of the killings will be covered anyway, and no one knows about it, or maybe just keep silent and no one is going to talk about it. Or even if we know that he was an evil man which kills a lot of people, we still got some good points about him. If and only if, he won.
and it's also depends on which country you are.. the same event will have different stories depends on which side did you learn about it.

anyway, I'm not going to discuss this longer, I got to go to Zurich, and I need to catch my bus to catch my train.
hehehehe